somewhere up there

i'm floating, i think.

i don't know if i'll be coming down for awhile. maybe it's this newfound me that has propelled me into this state, for the first time in a not-soon-to-be-regretted sort of state.

that smile that comes to my face when unprovoked through the senses is the best thing in the world.
i hope that everybody has been doing that for lifetimes and it just took me a few longer. it's a genuine smile, too, not one that is fleeting and boring after it's over. it lasts. and i like it.

i may feel like shit in body right now, but it can't penetrate this person i've become like it once could.

thank happiness for that.